Merry Christmas from Nova Scotia

I hope this season finds you all in good health and spirits. Things here have been busy but good. I am enjoying being home. Someday’s with two very active, large dogs, a large house and a new baby, I feel a bit overwhelmed. This surprised me a bit as I thought I would naturally fall into this role. In many ways I did and in many ways I did not. Don’t mistake me for complaining. I am not. Every day is a blessing and I am very much aware of that. I look at my baby and thank god for her every day. She is beautiful . I stare in the mirror daily with her in my arms to remind myself that this really did happen. She’s four months this week and weighing in at 16lbs.. My nurse told me she was a bit overweight which didn’t mean much since she is only 4 months old. Apparently four month old babies should weigh in around 14lbs. I guess I have good milk. We have not been blessed with a good sleeper which has resulted in many nights of only 4-5 hour sleeps. The lack of sleep has resulted in me feeling hung over almost everyday. Like I was out letting off some steam that involved booze and dancing till the wee hours. Somedays I would have to ask Danny “what time did we go to bed?” or “How many times did we get up with the baby?” These are things that I’m very aware of normally but in a lack of sleep haze, it’s a bit cloudy. I’ve tried my hardest to engrave every moment in to my brain, document every smile, giggle, anything of significance. This may be it. I don’t want to miss a thing. I want to remember how it felt the first time she smiled at me twenty years from now. I want to feel it everytime I think about it. My mom told me that you will think you will remember but you will not and that is why she has nothing to give us because she assumed that she’d remember. Anyone heard anything about the new documentary out called On Infertile Ground? It’s a Canadian documentary about couples who are struggling with infertility. I wasn’t sure if it was out yet but I watched the trailer online and it looks like it would be worth the watch. Let me know if you know anything about it. I look forward to sharing this first Christmas with my new family. G first Christmas. I wish you all the best in the coming year!