A Thought To Ponder....

It has been so long since I have written mainly for the fact that company has been in and out for months now. We took our first plane ride with little Miss to Newfoundland to introduce her to Danny’s family which was a success until she caught a flu bug. We had to take her to the hospital by ambulance since she had that much mucus in her poor body she was throwing up and choking. In two weeks we will head to Ontario to visit my family. I’m looking forward to that. Being in your own home is different than being at your in laws. Danny is from a large family. His mother has 12 siblings who all have their own families. Families this size are common in Newfoundland. When Danny’s mother married her youngest sibling was only four. I find it fascinating listening to her tell me about her childhood. Things were so simple but yet so complicated. A family this size living in a 3 bedroom home on an income of what would be pennies now. The dynamics were so different than what you see now. Fostering abandoned children and siblings that were taken by tragedy were all things that engraved themselves into the history of his mother’s family. Many of these things were swept under a rug, only to be uncovered years later. She talks openly about her history and the experiences she had as a child. What would it be like to live back then with infertility? In an era where large families were desired and expected. Would you be looked upon as a black sheep of the community? The person that the women whispered about during tea times and men made jokes about? How would a couple survive such devastation having to deal with not only their own feelings of inadequacy but a community chastising them for something they have no control over. A woman’s role was so defined back then as a mother and wife and the option to join the work force so limited. With the struggles that I have endured while dealing with infertility and all the emotion and experience it brings I can’t imagine dealing with this without science on my side. It must have been difficult for these families. I bet many women went on with their lives with feelings of despair and desperation with nothing at all to assist them in achieving their dreams of having a family. How sad. So today I am thankful for science. Thankful that although science did bring me despair and so much heartache after losing our twins it also gave me restored hope and most of all options that have brought so many of us the dreams we have always had to have our own family.